| | 1) Made me nearly pass out not only once or twice, but almost every time I stood up. I'm just glad that the dizziness passed each time after a few moments of resting against something.
2) Made me feel guilty as hell for nearly passing out while I was caring for a friend's physically handicapped child. This girl relies on me to cook for her, bring her things she needs, carry her from her wheelchair to the couch or toilet and be there to call for help if she suffers a respiratory emergency, twice a week while her mother is at work. I'm at a point where I don't think I'm capable of helping her anymore. And that too makes me feel guilty -- it's hard for her mother to find help, I enjoy spending time with her daughter and I know she looks forward to spending time with me.
3) Hasn't let me shit in four days, and I'm bloated and sore because of it.
4) Given me some killer bouts of nausea that last for hours, whether or not I try to eat something to calm my stomach down.
5) Made me feel fat, ugly, disgusting and worthless.
6) Forced me to contemplate shoving my fingers down my throat over one lousy 240 calorie frozen dinner.
7) Left me physically and mentally exhausted, but won't let me sleep -- y'know, that whole "starvation mode" thing.
Plus much, much more that I just don't have the energy to write about right now.
And for the low, low price of giving up the chance of ever having a happy, normal life, all this can be yours as well.
Oh, but I have a BMI of 17, so it all much be worth it, huh? Yeah fucking right.
I'm having a really shitty day today. Can you tell?
Also, why is it that Xanga seems to be the anorexia capital of the internet? "Anorexia" is apparently one of Xanga's most used tags... check it out for yourself.
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